When Ash loses her boyfriend, she is consumed by grief, loneliness and an overwhelming sense of guilt for her role in not only his death, but the deaths of everyone she has ever loved. Refusing to let anyone in for fear of losing them too, she becomes withdrawn, spending her days reliving the nightmares from her past.
Until she meets Luke.
Initially scared by his intensity and interest in her, Ash tries to push him away. But as Luke slowly starts to chip away at the walls she’s built, Ash finds herself doing the one thing she swore she’d never do again — falling in love.
Gitte 4.5 Stars.
Jenny 4.5 Stars
Gitte: I thought this was an extremely emotional and beautiful story. So different to anything I have read lately. I felt very melancholy throughout pretty much the whole book. I LOVED the music references, the play list was so important to this story. And because I pretty much have the majority of those songs on my iPod I felt ever written word in my heart. As I listened to them whilst reading I got chills, tears and at times my heart was in a puddle on the floor!
Jenny: I got excited for this book on the first few pages when I saw the first playlist. Like you GG, it was like the author had stolen my Ipod and put all my favourite bands and music in this book and every song was so important to the story. I did the same…listened to the songs while reading.
This was certainly a beautiful and emotional book and so well written. I just loved the author’ style of writing – everything felt so real and being that it is written in the first person you really feel the impact of the story especially when Ash allows herself to feel. This is a story I truly felt.
Gitte: It was beautifully written and I have to say the build-up had me desperate to get to the end because I literally had no idea where this story was going to end up. And the ending…WOW…PERFECTION! I did not see that coming and it made the story of Ash and Luke so poignant and emotionally heart wrenching and moving.
Jenny: I was the same – I was so anxious while reading it just wondering what was coming next and felt the story was well executed and switching from past to present prevented the story from getting bogged down and really kept up the pace l – I was dying to know how this book was going to end up.
Gitte: My heart ached for Ash, I wanted to pick her up , cuddle her and keep her out of harm’s way…in my head I called her my little Grim Reaper. But affectionally; because this girl; what she had to go through, wow I cried…A LOT!!!
“The anger at being the way I am, the anger at having caused all this and more than anything, the anger at being unable to do a f*****g thing about it all.”
Jenny: I loved Ash (Asha) too. Wow, what that girl had dealt with. No wonder she was so closed off emotionally. She was so full of self-doubt and so afraid to care or love another person and understandably so. I cried a few times as well. How much could one person endure and come out unscathed.
Gitte I LOVED the past/present style of writing. It gave us the background and explained the perception and conclusions drawn by Ash. This girl has rationalised everything back to herself and lives with this dark and distorted view of herself.
Jenny: I really enjoyed the past/present switch too and found myself itching for it to go back and forth because I really wanted to know how Ash got to the place she was at now, but at the same time I wanted to switch to the present to watch this beautiful relationship between her and Luke evolve, watching how Luke draws Ash out of herself.
The switching was flawless and handled so well. In particular the story of Sam had me in tears.
Gitte: Luke was amazing. He was a hero; a saviour and I loved him immediately!
Jenny: Luke….where do I start with him. I just loved him. And not because he was gorgeous, sensitive, caring, patient, tattooed lead singer in a band….okay, that helped, but Luke is so much more. What a great hero he was. I have to say, the sexual chemistry between these two was sizzling. Watching their relationship develop just touched my heart. Luke really sees Ash. He sees her pain.
“He’s unearthed it and yet he stays”
I love how Luke saw through her. How he took the time and saw the girl who was underneath.
Gitte: Two scenes in particular completely did me in….I had to stop reading I was crying that hard….but I won’t spoil this amazing book and say any more than that! Just know that if you are a crier like me you will need a full box of tissues!!
“…these things do happen and it’s just a part of life….”
Jenny: This book is a sad book, I certainly shed a few tears, but it’s also a book about hope and moving forward and dealing with your past. Luke and Ash dealt together and they will both steal your heart. I love these lines from Ash about Luke:
Ash on Luke
“I watch his eyes as they find me in the crowd. I watch his lips as they sing into the microphone. I watch his fingers as they play his guitar. I watch his body as it moves around the stage and I imagine his eyes, his body…all over me. I want him”
Well, have I tempted you to read this book yet? I hope so because I’m sure you will love it as much as we did.