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ONE DAY SOON by A MEREDITH WALTERS

 Standalone – highly emotive story of loyalty and love in times of hardship. 

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 one day soon 18th Feb

SYNOPSIS

 He found me in blood and tears. 
I stayed with him through darkness and fire. 

We loved each other in the moment between innocence and bitter truth. 
We were the kids easily ignored, who grew into adults we hardly knew. 

We weren’t meant to last forever. And we didn’t. 

He ran away. 
I tried to move on. 

Yet I never stopped thinking about the boy who had fought to keep me alive in a world that would have swallowed me whole. He was the past that I buried, but never forgot. 

Until the day I found him again, years after believing I had lost him forever. 

And in cold, resentful eyes, I saw the heart of the man who had been everything when I had nothing at all. So I vowed to hold onto the second chance that was stolen from the children we had been. 

Sometimes fate is ugly. Life can be twisted. 
And who we are can be ruined by who we once were. 

For two people who had survived so much, we would have to learn how to hold on before we were forced to let go. 

**trigger warning- contains mature themes that are intense and imply abuse, though are not graphic** 

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One Day Soon

 Reviewed by Gitte & Jenny

 “You’re not the same as the rest of us. You’re so much better. You’re so much more.”

In One Day Soon A Meredith Walters writes with a flawless beauty that shines despite depicting an incredibly gritty, ugly and almost hopeless existence. This book had us sobbing through the entirety of story. We actually felt so incredibly sad we had to continuously put our kindles down; taking days to finish which is quite unusual for us. She perfectly conveyed the despair, struggle and intrinsic human instinct to survive desperation and overwhelming circumstances.

‘He had been my happy life. Even when things were ugly. Later he became my broken heart.’

An ultimate romance was found under dire conditions born out of protection and vulnerability only to stand the test of absence and time. Two hearts never healing nor forgetting. Two souls fused together which life couldn’t tear apart. It was beautiful.

“I look at you and I see the girl I would have killed for. The girl I loved to the ends of this fucked up, messed up world. But then I see your eyes and I realize you’re not that girl. Not really. Sure, I recognise the hair. The eyes. The dimple in your chin. But you’re different now.”

One soul saving and trying to heal another only to sacrifice itself out of love. Through this sacrifice the other soul wanders but never forgets. At the end of the day, Yoss and Imi saved each other and acceptance and closure was found in their love that still lived in their hearts. When you have nothing every little gesture, touch and comfort means the world. We fought with them every step of their journey with heavy hearts. We cried our way through as this is not an easy story to read. Especially not as we’re both Mums with sons. One Day Soon broke us in that respect and it made hard reading through our tears. This is life and we know it exists and it breaks our fucking hearts. This Author did a fabulous job of not being over-descriptive, just insinuating enough for us to see what she was trying to show us without words. Well done!

‘Yossarian Frazier wasn’t an overly complicated person. He was smart. He was thoughtful. He was generous and kind. He was loyal to a fault. And he was someone who had been forced to make choices that would shatter most people. I could see the fragments being chipped away little by little as he struggled to hold on.’

Whilst it doesn’t sound right to say we enjoyed this melancholy and somewhat despondent story, we did, and have to say it’s one of the most harrowing reads emotionally we’ve read in a while – as to why – well because – this could be true in its realism. One Day Soon is a story that really could happen and it was written with such care, attention and beauty highlighting inspiring selflessness, perseverance and benevolence in the face of adversity.

“The beach. Remember our story?”

Because of this we struggled with an outcome we were not expecting which in a sense negated much of what came before. There really is true beauty in a non-traditional HEA and we wish that had been the case here in order to, in our opinion, stay true to the characters, the story and the poignancy of meaning behind the words. Yoss saved Imi – Imi saved Yoss – fifteen years of absence needed closure and re-learning to smile and fulfil a need. It was all there….until it wasn’t.

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ONE DAY SOON by A MEREDITH WALTERS
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BUTTERFLY DREAMS by A. MEREDITH WALTERS

Standalone: Emotional romance

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SYNOPSIS

In a powerful romance hailed as “heartbreaking, real, and breathtakingly beautiful” by Stacey Lynn, New York Timesbestselling author A. Meredith Walters tells the story of a troubled young woman and the unforgettable guy who teaches her to live—and love—to the fullest.

She’s waiting to die. . . . Corin Thompson is paralyzed by her obsession with mortality. Having lost both of her parents, she is terrified by the idea that she too will die young, and she loses control at any sign of illness. But when Corin connects with someone who has survived a very real brush with death, she begins to see the world in a whole new way.

He’s learning to live. . . . As Corin struggles under the weight of her neuroses, Beckett Kingsley is attempting to rebuild a life that feels all too temporary. With the ever-present threat of heart failure never far from his mind, he just wants to make the most of whatever time he has left. And that means pursuing the girl he never expected to find.

Together, Corin and Beckett finally learn to let go of their fears and take solace in everyday pleasures. Who knows what the future holds? After all, nothing lasts forever—the only promise they have is right now.

Butterfly Dreams

Reviewed by Jenny & Gitte

✯✯✯✯1/2 Stars

“Laugh with me.” I kissed the side of her neck.
“Dance with me.” I pulled her shirt aside and kissed her shoulder.
“Smile with me.” I kissed her temple
“”Love with me.” I ran my hands down her arms and laced my fingers through hers.
“Live with me.” I pleaded

In Butterfly Dreams, A Meredith Walters brought to life a beautifully crafted and moving story, handled with sensitivity and carried a powerful message telling us to seize and embrace every moment. It is a story of self-discovery that reminds us to laugh, love and live with abandon; that every day is precious and not be taken for granted. It’s a story of healing and finding happiness and it’s one we devoured, loved and embraced every beautiful moment. And yes….there were most certainly some tears!

Life for Beckett Kingsley takes a drastic turn when he suffers a heart attack. Left with the scars of his healing, Beckett is forced to re-evaluate his life and live according to his physical well-being which is a far cry from the athletic chaotic life he led before. Sure, he has his fears and regrets but he’s happy to be alive and makes the changes necessary to live his life to the fullest and boy didn’t we LOVE this guy!

“I was scared shitless of dying. So I did the only thing I could do. Learn how to live all over again.”

Corin Thompson has experienced grief and tragedy in her young life losing both her parents to separate illnesses. Having nursed her father through his last months of life, Corin bears the emotional scars witnessing such events brings and is left continually questioning her own mortality believing she too will die prematurely, convinced every ache and pain to be a life threatening illness. Are these symptoms real or psychosomatic?

“Take it from a man who almost lost everything, you can’t focus on the end. You have to concentrate on what’s right in front of you”

Beckett and Corin are opposites in that Beckett is a glass half optimist, happy to be alive, whilst Corin is the glass half empty pessimist questioning her own mortality and believing fate has only cruel intentions for her.  Can Beckett chip away at her walls to show her life is worth grabbing by the scruff of the neck and living not to be spent wallowing in the ‘what could be’ instead embracing the ‘what is‘.

“I’ve lost so many people, Beck. You scare me…….I don’t look at you as the guy who could die. I look at you as the guy who could devastate me.”

To begin with, Corin’s cold exterior was so at odds with the warmth of Beckett that we found her a little difficult to connect with however as the story progressed and she began to soften we understood her blunt, frank and prickly personality was her way of shielding the insecurities and pain she felt inside. This lady didn’t hold back expressing her thoughts, but sharing her fears was a whole other story.

The friendship between Beckett and Corin developed steadily and beautifully setting the foundation for the deeper feelings that grew between them. Their relationship never felt hurried, always felt honest and therefore enabled us to connect and experience the growth of their relationship throughout the story.

‘She made me laugh. She made me want to scream. She made me so incredibly happy. And so damn sad. She made me embrace life and live it. And I wanted to do the same for her.’

This book could be incredibly sad and morose at times and considering the theme of the story that is to be expected, however the author so perfectly peppered her story with some light-hearted banter, a bit of snarky and witty inner monologue, heart-warming and exceptionally romantic moments and a sincere and beautiful character in Beckett that all went into making this story a real winner for us!

Butterfly Dreams by A Meredith Walters
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RECLAIMING THE SAND by A MEREDITH WALTERS

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SYNOPSIS*

THIS IS A STAND ALONE WITH NO CLIFFHANGER!*

Bully and victim.
Tormenter and tormented.
Villain and hero.

Ellie McCallum was a bully. No connection to anyone or anything. A sad and lonely existence for a young woman who had come to expect nothing more for herself. Her only happiness coming from making others miserable.

Particularly Freaky Flynn.

Flynn Hendrick lived a life completely disconnected even as he struggled to become something more than that boy with Asperger’s. He was taunted and teased, bearing the brunt of systematic and calculated cruelty, ultimately culminating in a catastrophic turn of events that brought Ellie and Flynn’s worlds crashing down.

But then Flynn and Ellie grew up.

And moved on.

Until years later when their paths unexpectedly cross again and the bully and the freak are face to face once more.

When labels come to define you, finding yourself feels impossible. Particularly for two people disconnected from the world who inexplicably find a connection in each other.

And out of the wreckage of their tragic beginnings, an unlikely love story unfolds.

But a painful past doesn’t always want to let go. And old wounds are never truly healed…and sometimes the further you try to run from yourself the closer you come to who you really are.

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Reviewed by Jenny & Gitte

Due to an inability to come to a combined rating for this story as it emotionally broke us, we have split the rating into appropriate categories. This hardly ever happens so bear with us.

**Writing: 5 Beautiful & Emotional Stars
**Concept: 5 Brave & Unique Stars
**Overall Story: 3.5 Stars
**Ellie: 2 Stars
**Flynn: 5 Heartbreaking and Incredibly Inspirational Stars

We’re going to do this as a joint review between us as we had so much to say to each other, both whilst reading this book and after we’d finished. Reclaiming the Sand felt like a marathon because our hearts hurt so much we’d have to stop and discuss, before venturing back to it.

‘Flynn Hendrick had taught me how to feel. He had taught me how to live. He had taught me how to love.’

This is such a difficult book to review for us because on the one hand, the writing was phenomenal. This story had us running a gauntlet of emotions and experiencing a physical ache from sheer and utter heartbreak whilst at other times experiencing hatred and disgust.

You see, whilst we loved the character of Flynn with all our hearts, it was his torture at the hands of such disgusting and vile people that had us regularly putting down our Kindles to discuss and take a breather as it affected us so deeply.

This young man, with the innocence and honesty of a child required understanding and patience, yet what he received was ridicule, cruelty and hatred and this made Reclaiming the Sand such a difficult book to read. There were many times we both put it aside to call and console one another as Flynn’s past was recalled with such blinding and gut wrenching honesty.

‘He sees the beauty where others don’t. He hears love when others only hear pain.’

The fact that a major part of the appalling bullying he suffered was at the hands of Ellie, his friend and love interest, well this was deeply disturbing and so hard for us to digest. Thus finding anything redeeming about Ellie wasn’t an easy feat for us. In fact, we could say we even hated this character at times which is a hard thing to admit to. Every time we’d somewhat forgiven her, she would once again treat Flynn with disdain or we would experience one of Flynn’s flashbacks and we would find ourselves despising Ellie all over again.

‘It was a face I had hoped I’d never see again. The face I hated, blamed and missed in equal measure.’

Don’t get us wrong, we did understood her aggressive nature was due to a survival instinct brought about by the life she had been forced to lead, moving from once unloving foster home to the next and feeling trapped in a town that was slowly suffocating her.

‘Your mom didn’t want you. We don’t want you. No one will ever love you. Those were harsh words for a child to hear. Especially one who had already been to hell.’

However, her participation, along with her equally appalling friends in the disgusting and heartbreaking treatment doled out to Flynn in the name of “fun” was something we just couldn’t move on from. It disgusted us and it made us extremely sad and desolate.

Bully and victim.

Tormenter and tormented.

Villain and hero.

Because of our revulsion for Ellie and Dania and our utter love and compassion for Flynn, we are so conflicted in our feelings for Reclaiming the Sand. Whilst it was read with a heavy heart, anger, hurt and pain, it was the brilliance of A Meredith Walters that she could make us ‘feel’ so strongly about the characters. No matter what that feeling was. That she could make us open our hearts to this beautiful man whose only crime was to be ‘different’ and make us love him implicitly to the point that we cared so deeply for his welfare, that she could evoke hatred to the other characters who made Flynn’s life such a misery, well, kudos to an author who can make us experience such intense emotions in a story.

‘I hate being alone. I want people to talk to me. I want them to like me.’ -Flynn

There are so many important and valuable messages in Reclaiming the Sand. Every reader will take something away from it. It’s written from the heart and you feel every word written.

Flynn was such a beautifully written character that one can’t help but claim him and love him. A Meredith Walters set a beautiful benchmark by bringing Asperger’s into fiction; for readers to become more aware and not disparage at a label without knowing all the facts and the person behind this label. His brutal honesty was refreshing and the fact he could remember and recite every cruel thing he had experienced, brought us to our knees. What we initially see when we meet a person is not always the real picture.

“You remembered.” – Ellie
“I remember everything about you. Even the stuff I wish I could forget…..” – Flynn

On the other hand, Ellie was such a strong and aggressive character that, up against Flynn, her flaws were magnified and we had an impossible time connecting with her; her viciousness came across almost glorified at times. We didn’t sympathise on the whole nor did we feel compassion for her, whereas we felt immense compassion for Flynn. Ellie and her associates brought out everything we despise about human nature and we just couldn’t get past that. We realise that Ellie has her own issues, however, none that would explain or redeem her sheer cruelty and double standards. Yes, Ellie has been neglected, hurt and subjected to a traumatic time in foster care. She may not understand exactly what love is, but she was capable of knowing right from wrong. No, this girl never succeeded in redeeming herself to us sadly.

Flynn has Asperger’s; we understand the social and behavioural limitations that come with this form of Autism. Asperger’s is a lifelong disability that affects how an individual makes sense of the world, processes information and relates to other people. There is no cure nor is there any treatment. Flynn doesn’t like touch, he’s a man of routine and is highly creative and intelligent. The fact that he still sees Ellie as a friend after being fully aware of her actions and her ridicule in this story, was for us one of the reasons we had such a hard time reading Reclaiming the Sand. How many times did Flynn have to be beaten, taunted or left on his own by Ellie before it’s time to call a halt?

In a book filled with hate and the excessive emphasizing of individual social inadequacies highlighted by society failing in areas of foster care and helping young people in need to stay on the right track, it bred a group of people that as readers we found almost impossible to see the good in. This may be our limitations, but we must call it as we see it and we always will. The extreme emotional torment we felt halted our reading experience at times and upon finishing we felt the ending, after such a harrowing journey, rushed and very abrupt. In terms of the journey and this being fiction, we needed more of an ending.

“I am an ugly person.

I do ugly things.

I think ugly thoughts.

You will hate me.

You will detest the choices I have made.

You won’t understand me at all.

You may feel some sympathy. A shred of sadness for the woman I’ve become. It’s hard not to feel bad for the person who has fallen so far. But you will love him.”

ARC provided by the author, with thanks, in return for an honest review.

 RECLAIMING THE SAND – A MEREDITH WALTERS
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