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EIGHT (Love by Numbers #6) by E S CARTER :: REVIEW

Standalone in a series, single Dad, second chance at love

SYNOPSIS
I’m sorry for your loss.
Why do people say that?
When someone you love is taken from you, when a part of you dies along with them, you haven’t lost them like you would your car keys or mobile phone. They aren’t stuck down the side of the sofa or left in the ignition of your car for you to find later. You haven’t absentmindedly put them somewhere and forgotten. You will never lose them because they live in you.
The soul crushing hurt that burns your lungs with every breath you take comes from knowing where they are and not being with them.
The ugly and real definition of grief is being left behind.
I’m sorry they left you.
I’m sorry you are alone.
I’m sorry it hurts to breathe.
Loss; it doesn’t even compare.
She was my first love.
She is my last love.
I am an empty husk who pretends to be filled with enough love for those of us she left behind.
Our little girl and newborn son need me.
I am both mother and father now.
I am hollow and empty.
I am a shell.
So why does the girl with the face of an angel and eyes that mirror my emptiness, look at me like I’m her everything?

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Reviewed by Jenny & Gitte

4.5 Stars

“You’re not her.”
“No, I’m not her.”

There’s something so special about the Love by Numbers series by E S Carter. Whilst each book focuses primarily on a specific character, it is the extraordinarily beautiful family dynamic, at its core, which also captivates us. This, and the clever way in in which she dangles that little carrot about a ‘secondary‘ character in each book, teasing us into eagerly anticipating her next story as we follow each Fox-Williams man in his quest for love throughout Love by Numbers. We’ve followed Josh Fox-Williams through each book and after the unfolding events in One (Book #5), we knew Josh’s story was going to crush our hearts and so we had tissues at the ready and we’re glad we did, boy did we need them!

“We love you, Josh. We will take all your ugly and your pain and not judge you for any of it. We will not tell you your anger is unwarranted. We will not demand you to let it go. There is no cure for grief.”

In One, we glimpsed the heartbreaking moment Josh’s world came crumbling down around him, when Laura passed away, leaving behind a devastated husband, a bewildered sweet little girl, Ivy and a newborn baby boy, for Josh to nurture and tend to, whilst drowning in his own grief.

‘This house is saturated with her. She is everywhere, and yet, she is nowhere. Every morning when I wake up, she dies again.’

Whilst the Fox-Williams boys were all sporty and liked to put it about in their youth, Josh was the level headed slightly nerdy primary school teacher who married his first and only love, his high school sweetheart, Laura Miles. Josh was a deliriously happy husband, father and son and in Eight, that all comes crashing down as the reality and depth of his loss hits home. Josh’s grief was a tangible, living thing. It was bloody gut wrenching, leaving us a sobbing mess from the start. To witness this beautiful man grappling with his overwhelming grief and responsibilities was gut wrenching.

After shutting himself off emotionally, and allowing his brother Isaac to step up to the plate by taking on the responsibility of caring for Josh’s adorable children, while he sank further and further into despair, Josh one day realises he needs to make changes to bring himself back from the brink and decides to move to Ibiza, escaping to Nate’s (his brothers) villa with his children for a while to regroup.

“Life is complicated, ugly and often messy, but it’s also beautiful too.”

It is there he meets 25 year old Halle Richards,  a soulful, sweet and beautiful woman who is dealing with her own issues and whom Josh is initially quite hostile towards, but is attracted to nonetheless. Their relationship begins with a burning passionate night, to purely satisfy their base needs, yet buids to an emotional relationship between the two.

E S Carter stripped Josh’s emotions raw, revealing the anger, despair, conflict, turmoil, hate, sadness and confusion Josh was feeling. Every emotion was felt, every tear we could shed was shed. We felt Josh’s loss and love for Laura with every beat of our heart and because of this, we did find the relationship between Halle and Josh played out a little fast once it came to fruition, and would have preferred it to have been a more slow build and in the moment, considering the issues they were both dealing with.

“You deserve more. More than a broken man who is in love with a ghost.”

However, that being said, it did not detract at all from the intense emotional pull of this story, which was sweetly peppered with tender, funny moments courtesy of two absolutely gorgeously sweet children. If you adore books with children, you will fall head over heels in love with Eight. Little Ivy and baby Arthur (or Arrfffuur as Ivy calls him) are two of the sweetest, heart stealing little children you could imagine with E S Carter capturing their personalities beautifully. Passionate, poignant and real, Josh’s story will break you and heal you, and make you believe in second chances and love. Another fabulous book in this wonderful series! E S Carter, you’ve done it again!


THE LOVE BY NUMBERS SERIES by E.S. CARTER

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Available to purchase below
Nineteen Book One – our review  | amazon us  |  amazon uk 
Twenty One Book Two our review |  amazon us  |  amazon uk 
Three Book Three – our review  | amazon us |   amazon uk 
Thirteen Book Four –  our review  | amazon us  |  amazon uk
One Book Five – our review | amazon us | amazon uk
Eight Book Six our review |  amazon us | amazon uk

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ONE (Love By Numbers: 5) by E.S. CARTER :: REVIEW

MM sexy, sweet MM Romance. Can be read as a standalone.


one

SYNOPSIS

One click.
One perfect frame.
That’s all it takes to capture an eternal moment; although most people let them pass by without acknowledgement.
I don’t waste any.
Not a single one.
If I see something of beauty, I want to experience it, feel it and immortalise it.
If I see someone of beauty, I want to taste them, worship them and memorise them.
I don’t have a type, if I like you, I like you.
I don’t have a preference.
My bisexuality is a gift, not a defect.
It’s the freedom to see beyond gender.
One blink.
One touch.
One night.
Life is filled with so many ones.
One chance to get things right.
One life to live as you choose.
One decision that gives you acceptance.
One person to fill the emptiness.
Just one?
Nah, like I said, life is full of ones.
My camera lets me focus on the good times; I develop from life’s negatives and if things don’t work out, I just take another shot.
Who needs just one?

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Reviewed by Gitte & Jenny

‘Love hurts. It gives, and it takes away. It’s brutal with its beauty.’

We absolutely love this series, so were excited to read Isaac’s story – which is book five – as it’s the one we’ve been dying for. Whilst this can be read as a standalone we highly recommend reading this series in its entirety, as it’s fabulous. So much romance, passion, drama and angst. So much emotion and love.

‘His thoughts, his dreams, his wants, and his desires. This man is dangerous to me.’

We weren’t sure where Isaac’s story would go or how he would find his happiness but we were ready to find out. The enigmatic – almost stuck in life’s limbo – Fox brother who’s a renowned genius behind the camera needed to find his happiness, settle down and be loved. He needed to find his place as a man, not the brother or son of….

‘I am lost because he found me.’

Isaac and Flynn’s story is one of finding one-self through the aftermath of tragedy and the overcoming of obstacles as well as healing – with family at the core. It was beautiful, passionate and quite emotional. A true journey of love, reclaiming and understanding. With love comes hope. With injustice comes forgiveness. And with tragedy comes reclamation.

‘Even now my life is divided. There’s before. Then there’s after. The two are entwined yet so far apart that they cannot exist side by side.’

Isaac is at a crossroad. His photography career is soaring yet his personal life is struggling as his heart feels lonely, wanting someone he believes he can never have. Flynn.  Isaac’s tired of meaninglessness and day to day. Deep down he wants permanence and forever whilst outwardly rebelling this. Tragedy finds him questioning everything. He intrigued us and stole our hearts from the first time we met him.

‘Life gives and life takes away. It’s brutal, and it’s fucking unfair, and I don’t understand it, but what I do know is that it goes on with or without you.’

Flynn has fought his way to be where he is today, currently working as a health and fitness expert as well as model turned actor. He’s still struggling to come to terms with a family tragedy and the confusion that’s risen from this heartbreak. Sometimes we question who we are and reject parts of ourselves despite the ease with which it makes us feel or what our heart clearly needs. Sometimes we hurt the ones we love. Sometimes we need reassuring that it’s okay to love who our heart desires.

‘Why did I ever fight this? Why did I ever think I could win against the power this man has over me? He owns me.’

Flynn and Isaac do not have the best memory of each other for many reasons, yet is this truly so? Meeting up again brings back pain and confusion yet through personal realisations and healing comes self-assurance and an open heart and mind. Sometimes the best comes to those who wait, and who opens their soul to true love.

‘Acceptance is serenity. It’s happiness, it’s understanding, it’s faith in yourself and others. It’s knowing that you can’t change the past, but you can choose your future. Acceptance is love.’ 


THE LOVE BY NUMBERS SERIES by E.S. CARTER

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Available to purchase below
Nineteen Book One – our review  | amazon us  |  amazon uk 
Twenty One Book Two our review |  amazon us  |  amazon uk 
Three Book Three – our review  | amazon us |   amazon uk 
Thirteen Book Four –  our review  | amazon us  |  amazon uk
One Book Five – our review | amazon us | amazon uk
Eight Book Six our review |  amazon us | amazon uk

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THIRTEEN : LOVE BY NUMBERS BOOK #4 by E.S. CARTER

An interconnecting series but this book can be read as a standalone.

‘Love is like a four leaf clover; lucky to have but hard to find.’

THIRTEEN by E.S. CARTER

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Thirteen

SYNOPSIS

Thirteen…
Unlucky for some.
Including me.

The woman I loved left me on the thirteenth.
Thirteen months of living together and she walked out the door without looking back, straight into another man’s arms.
She was kind enough to leave something to remind me of her: thirteen thousand pounds worth of debt.

Thirteen; the day I lost my nuts.
Well, I didn’t lose them, cancer took them from me. Better to be a man without balls than one without life.
Still, thirteen sucked… until it didn’t.

Until her.
Thirteen might just be my new lucky number.

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Thirteen

Reviewed by Gitte & Jenny

 ‘Man spontaneously combusts from sexual deprivation in the backseat of a cab.’

We love this Author and all her characters who’ve become like friends and family to us now after a huge binge read. We’d already read Three but wanted to read Nineteen and Twenty-One before embarking on Thirteen. Confused by numbers? We were too but the reading order can be found in this post. We’d recommend reading this series in order to get the most out of it and you definitely won’t regret it. We have become so attached to the characters and hearing their individual stories has been fabulous yet so is catching up with the rest of them.

I understand wanting to just be…you. Not a lesser version of yourself, or the you that you wish to be, but the you that makes you…whole, normal even.”

This is H’s story – Harry with the big heart, the wicked sense of humour and the gentle soul. We couldn’t wait to hear his voice and find out just who could possibly measure up and deserve to win that heart of gold. Harry’s been a constant in the Fox family and has always been there for his friends whom he consider his ‘chosen family’. This time it’s them who have to step up to the plate when Harry is dealt some devastating blows. We do have to give a shout out to Harry’s Mum though because she’s a fabulous Lady who clearly passed on her fantastic sense of humour to her son.

‘I’m H, funny guy, happy-go-lucky, banter king and source of fun. Not H, the pissy, get your own drink, sour faced bastard, who calls his friends shitty names.’

After going through the rounds Harry’s not the same joking jovial self and we can’t blame him. If we could we would’ve jumped into our kindles to hug him. He’s been through the ringer and has lost his happy-go-lucky self somewhere in the process. His mates see it and we see the change in him too. Enter Delilah, the quirky, sweet and funny bunny.

‘Me and my Davidson wanted to tango all night long with her. I really should get out more; watching Strictly Come Dancing with my folks on a Saturday night has got me using dance terms as a euphemism for sex. I look down at my Davidson and shake my head. “We will fuck again, my son. No tango shite for us.” Yes. That feels more manly.’

We fell in complete love with Lilah, she too has not had it easy and is fighting her own demons. We could tell immediately that they were two sides of the same coin and that each would in some way save the other. We wanted Harry back and for Lilah to feel safe and loved.

‘Broken. Defective. Weak. All words I’ve felt about myself over the last year or so, but never with Lilah. I’ve never felt those things when I’m with her. Whole. Connected. Complete. That’s how being with Lilah makes me feel. Now I need to make her feel it too.

We enjoyed this story and it was great to catch up with the rest of the crew and like we said, you’ll find yourselves feeling part of one sexy, funny and loving family! We are counting the days to get Isaac’s story!!!!

“I’ve waited my whole life to be someone’s extraordinary.”

 4 Stars 


THE LOVE BY NUMBERS SERIES by E.S. CARTER

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Available to purchase below
Nineteen Book One – our review  | amazon us  |  amazon uk 
Twenty One Book Two our review |  amazon us  |  amazon uk 
Three Book Three – our review  | amazon us |   amazon uk 
Thirteen Book Four –  our review  | amazon us  |  amazon uk
One Book Five – our review | amazon us | amazon uk
Eight Book Six our review |  amazon us | amazon uk

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NINETEEN and TWENTY ONE by E.S. CARTER (Two Book Review)

 Spoiler free dual book review. Both books are to be read in order.

‘Eternal love; a love that can make someone immortal, for as long as you their heart in yours.’

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Nineteen Book One : amazon us  &  amazon uk
Twenty One Book Two amazon us   amazon uk 

Nineteen

SYNOPSIS

 Your life can change in the blink of an eye.
How you adapt to these changes is what defines you.

Jake Fox is an aspiring actor who has found little success.
He is also a typical, cliche, bad boy, who ‘loves them and leaves them’ without love ever coming into the equation.

Emma Campbell is finding her way in life, struggling with memories from her past, an apathetic mother and the choices ahead of her. Can she keep focused on the light when life keeps surrounding her in darkness?

Polar opposites, will love be the thread that binds them or will circumstances beyond their control, tear them apart?


TwentyOne2

SYNOPSIS

 Fate kept placing Emma Campbell and Jake Fox in each others paths.
Fate also kept putting overwhelming obstacles in their way.
What fate didn’t realise is that Jake and Emma share a connection that is stronger than circumstance.
An intense bond that threatens everything they thought they knew about themselves, one that is only made stronger by a perfect day.

A perfect day where they both surrendered to the force of their feelings for one another.
A perfect day that ended in darkness and tragedy.

Jake is missing.
Emma is lost.
Lost in grief; lost in hopelessness.

Will fate finally grant them a chance to be together or will it tear them apart?


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Reviewed by Jenny & Gitte

“…you have it all wrong. You overwhelm him because he feels things for you that he has never felt before. It’s scaring the shit out of him.”

We were first introduced to E.S. Carter’s Fox-William clan in Three, Liam’s story, and it was here we relished the camaraderie and the deep family bond between the five Fox-William brothers and their parents, not to mention the heartfelt romance between these men and the women who consume their hearts, leaving us with a big desire to know more!

“I bloody knew it. My little brother, the man whore, has finally found someone he has feelings for, well fuck me.”

We had read Three as a ‘standalone’ and whilst we enjoyed every moment of Liam’s story, we did feel as though we were ‘missing’ out on something. There were characters and storylines in Three that were interconnected from Nineteen and Twenty One, particularly the close friendship between Emma (Jules) and Liam and Emma and Jakes romantic relationship which was explored in Nineteen and Twenty One.

Knowing that H’s (a close friend of the Fox-William brothers) was due for release this month, we decided we wouldn’t proceed any further with the story until we had a chance to catch up and explore Jake and Emma’s story and we’re so glad we did.  In a strange way, to have already experienced the point at which Emma and Jake were at in Three, the man Jake had become helped us relate more to his character in the preceding books and we didn’t feel as though the story had been spoiled in any way as there was so much we didn’t know going into these books that wasn’t touched on in Three.

“I fucking know that Nate, but she keeps running and every time she does, she takes a piece of me with her, it hurts Nate…It fucking hurts.”

Jake is a very different man to the one we me in Three. He’s a tart and makes no apologies. He has an insatiable sexual appetite and has no qualm in fulfilling his needs with whatever pretty thing takes his fancy. Now, we know there are readers who don’t like the thought of their hero getting all hot and bothered with anyone other than the heroine but we appreciated the way E.S. Carter had us experiencing Jake’s roving ways first hand because it made the moment he realised his feelings for Emma, and the confliction he was feeling, all the more believable when it did eventuate.

‘I only play with women like me, women who know all I’m offering is a few hours to escape into a haze of sex and lust, nothing more.
The Emma’s of this world are not made for a man like me.’

Jake and Emma couldn’t have been more different. Jake the conceited cock who found it very hard to express his emotions and Emma the sweet girl who wore her heart on her sleeve and was riddled with self-doubt were right for each other in so many ways. On the surface, they shouldn’t have been attracted to each other, but there were certainly not only sparks, but something between them that went soul deep.

‘Love is one soul, living in two bodies, beating in two hearts, making them whole.’

For Emma and Jake the timing couldn’t have been worse. Jakes TV career was starting to take off, his star was on the rise and his bad boy persona was perfect fodder for the paparazzi. Emma was coasting along, looking for a change in her life and life was about to change in the blink of an eye for her in the most heartbreaking of ways.

‘How can you follow your heart if it’s even more confused than your head?

Emma and Jake had to part ways, one needing to reaffirm and restart their life and one coming to terms with feelings that couldn’t be explained, however fate has other ideas!

We did have a bit of an issue with Nineteen and Twenty One which was the retelling of the story in alternative points of view. Reading the same story by Emma and Jake did become  a little tiresome and had the effect of slowing the story down at times, however on the upside there were times hearing the scene in a different voice added to the moment and expanded on what had occurred, though we feel a sporadic alternative POV would have been something we would have enjoyed more.

The essence of the Love by Numbers series is friendship, family and love and on that account E.S. Carter has delivered a rich and beautiful series. We thoroughly enjoyed Jake and Emma’s story and whilst it didn’t allow us the level of emotional impact nor the focus on family we loved so much in Three, Jake and Emma’s story still managed to pull at our heartstrings and allowed us that perfect romantic escape we cherish, making this a series we’d recommend in a heartbeat!

 


THE LOVE BY NUMBERS SERIES by E.S. CARTER

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Available to purchase below
Nineteen Book One – our review  | amazon us  |  amazon uk 
Twenty One Book Two our review |  amazon us  |  amazon uk 
Three Book Three – our review  | amazon us |   amazon uk 
Thirteen Book Four –  our review  | amazon us  |  amazon uk
One Book Five – our review | amazon us | amazon uk
Eight Book Six our review |  amazon us | amazon uk

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THREE – LOVE by NUMBERS BOOK THREE by E.S. CARTER

Can be read as a Standalone but we recommend reading in order.
Forbidden love, second chance love.

‘We are all lost…until someone finds us..’

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three

SYNOPSIS

I am a son.
I am a brother.
I am an artist.
I am a student.
I am her student.

She was my first.
First infatuation, first ‘real’ kiss, first love, first…..
heartbreak.

I gave her everything, including my body and would have given her more.
I gave her ‘I love you’ ….she told me her heart was filled by another, there was no room left for me.

We could never be.
What we did was wrong.
It didn’t feel wrong to me.

The deepest hurt is a love that you cannot have. It will last the longest, cut the deepest and feel the strongest. 
It is an imperfect love; a disfigured circle that never ends. 
You cannot control it; it’s as simple as blinking and just like blinking the more you try to stop it, the more the pain consumes you.

This is book 3 in ‘The Love by Numbers’ series. 
Although it contains characters from the previous books, it can be read as a standalone.

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Reviewed by Jenny & Gitte

✯✯✯✯✯ ‘superb’ stars!

‘Sometimes love can be explained as a kind of madness, other times a gift, there are even times when love can feel like a duty but this love, this love was life.’

Why have we never read anything by this author before? That was our first thought when we started reading Three, which is the third book in a series but can be read as a standalone, which we did. And whilst we followed the story completely, it left us desperate to read the first two books which we will be doing soon as we desperately want to garner more background on Liam, his brothers, friends and family, because bloody hell did we love them all! We’re greedy and need more of this author’s exquisite words!!!

Oh this book! Our hearts! This book was a romance lovers wish come true and Liam may just be one of the most compassionate, caring and extraordinarily real male characters we’ve read. What a journey and what a stunningly told story of love, selflessness and sacrifice but most of all soul deep, intense love and boy oh boy didn’t we feel the very essence of that love seep through every page of this book! The writing was breathtaking. The way this author plays with metaphors and analogies is exquisite, her detailing so rich, the characters so warm, friendly and real that it felt as though we shared this journey with Liam and Cari, not merely as readers but as participants. E S Carter sure did tell one heartfelt and moving story of love in its purest form, even if it did begin in a somewhat forbidden way.

‘This kiss was hello. It was I’ve missed you, I’ve craved you, I’ve never forgotten you. It was love.’

Three is the story of the love shared between the then, art student Liam Fox-Wiliams and Cari Pritchard, his teacher which began when Liam was 18 and was cut short when Cari pushed Liam out of her life, leaving Liam pained and unwilling to give his heart again. For Liam, one woman had and would always have his heart and  years later he bumps into her and in the process old wounds reopen.

“Sometimes you have to distance yourself from someone who’s hurt you or you will never fully heal. Some people come into our lives and stay for a lifetime, others might only share a small chapter; only you know when it’s time to forgive them and keep them in the past or allow them into your future.”

Cari has always been Liam’s missing piece, his soulmate and seeing her again reinforces this and for Cari the feelings are mutual. But why did she push Liam out of her life, making him believe there was no future for them, leaving him crushed and confused?

‘The trouble is when I gave myself to her, I gave my entire being.
My heart, my soul, my blood, my bones.
It wasn’t enough. I wasn’t enough.

Well, we’re not going to tell you because that is the whole crux of the story and what unfolds is what makes this story so exquisitely beautiful and moving. Cari certainly had her reasons; they were valid and selfless and this young lady had certainly sacrificed a lot in losing Liam.

‘I am lonely. So lonely it feels like I’m drowning some days; drowning and yet I am surrounded by others who can breathe easily.’

We adored both Liam and Cari as well as their story. The interactions between Liam and his brothers and also Liam and his parents were witty and breathtakingly heartfelt. This family is truly special and his Mother’s love and pride for her son made our hearts swell.

“A mother loves her children unconditionally and without boundaries. She knows when they are hurt, she knows when they are happy and she knows when they are sad. She knows this without any words being spoken.”

We have to say we are dying for Isaac’s book! What a colourful character and beautiful soul he was. We think his story will be something else and we’ll pause life to read that one!

“Everyone deserves to be accepted Li-Li. Both for their strengths and their weaknesses; for who they are and who they want to be, but first you have to accept yourself. Don’t look for someone to complete you, look for someone who accepts you completely.” Isaac

See what we mean? If you love romance, if you love love – if you’re looking for a moving story told with sensitivity, beauty and love. If you want a book that will completely steal your heart……then we can’t say enough to go and grab this book! You won’t forget these guys in a hurry…we know we won’t!

 ♥ 


THE LOVE BY NUMBERS SERIES by E.S. CARTER

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Available to purchase below
Nineteen Book One – our review  | amazon us  |  amazon uk 
Twenty One Book Two our review |  amazon us  |  amazon uk 
Three Book Three – our review  | amazon us |   amazon uk 
Thirteen Book Four –  our review  | amazon us  |  amazon uk
One Book Five – our review | amazon us | amazon uk
Eight Book Six our review |  amazon us | amazon uk

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