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DARK NOTES by PAM GODWIN

Standalone – Forbidden Student/Teacher BDSM themes

‘I’m his Ivory, and he’s my darkest note.’

DARK NOTES by PAM GODWIN is available to purchase below
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SYNOPSIS

They call me a slut. Maybe I am.
Sometimes I do things I despise.
Sometimes men take without asking.

But I have a musical gift, only a year left of high school, and a plan.
With one obstacle.

Emeric Marceaux doesn’t just take.
He seizes my will power and bangs it like a dark note.
When he commands me to play, I want to give him everything.
I kneel for his punishments, tremble for his touch, and risk it all for our stolen moments.

He’s my obsession, my master, my music.
And my teacher.


 

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Reviewed by Gitte & Jenny

4.5 hypnotic stars

‘I want you.

I wait for you.

You have me.’

It’s been a while since we last read a Pam Godwin book so when this forbidden teacher-student romance came our way we were both like; YES please! So, not only do we love our forbidden but we also love our dark. Now, let us tell you that Dark Notes was not what we expected. It was so far beyond that. It was dark, harrowing, messed up and cold with moments of intense scorching heat. It was so addictive we actually couldn’t put it down. We HAD TO KNOW! It was crazy, it was unbelievable and it was heart-breaking and tragic. Dark Notes was brilliantly written and whilst part of it were reminiscent of other work we did find the story quite unique as a whole.

‘Ivory’s an intoxicating dream, the kind that visits a man at night, veiled by the darkness of dusk and safely pursued in the secret corners of the mind. But in daylight, she’s a dangerous fantasy, tempting a man to do things with his eyes wide open.’

Ivory, goodness, this girl is a walking survivor of tragedy and hatred. However, she has real strength, courage and conviction. Ivory has ambitions and with the help of her late Dad’s benevolent actions she is trying to achieve greatness to fulfill her passion and to lift herself out of a dire situation which brings actual pain and emotional scarring. This girl has not received much love nor affection in life. For her riches are made up of tender loving care. Ivory is quite the clued up seventeen year old. After all, she had to grow up pretty quickly at the age of 13 when her life changed.

“You’re the kind of man that sets his sights on something and doesn’t let go till he possesses it.”

Ivory’s now 17 and life takes a complete turn in the road when Emeric Marceaux, 27, turns up as the new teacher. Her eyes are opened to a whole new world when lust, passion and love – the forbidden kind – rears its head. Emeric is one of the most captivating characters we’ve read. He’s actually so screwed up – such an arse – it became part of his appeal. Luscious and wicked. Cruel and Conniving. Passionate and loving. A master pianist with credentials as long as his…well this is one talented man, let us tell you. Every one of his actions or emotions is exaggerated and intense. Their relationship is fraught with perils both legally, morally and emotionally. However, despite how messy it all gets we absolutely loved it. We loved the pair of them.

‘He’s strumming a better song, our song, set to the tempo of our breaths and beating hearts.’

Emeric introduces Ivory to a Master – sub lifestyle which opened her eyes and changed her mind-set on love and sex. We have to warn you that these scenes are blazing hot and you may need a breather and or a lie down. You pick. It sure was one hell of an erotic thrilling ride wrapped up in beautiful writing.

‘That’s when I hear it. The tempo of our breaths. The drum of our heartbeats. The crackle in the air. The exquisite cadence pulses through me, awakening sensations I’ve never felt, composing a melody I’ve never heard. Our hypnotic, dark notes. This is so much more than punishment or forbidden pleasure.’

Pam Godwin wrote a timeless loving romance of; wealthy hero saves poor heroine in distress yet she dressed it up in a veil of gloom so evil that the intensity of the well-placed music teamed with the hero’s protection and obsession as well as the love and the tenderness spoke volumes. It was poetic beauty veiled in haunting filthy shadows. It was at times a bit of a love-hate relationship….we bloody loved it.

‘I’m his Ivory, and he’s my darkest note.’

 

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DELIVER by PAM GODWIN

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SYNOPSIS

His name was Joshua Carter. Now it’s whatever she wants it to be.

She is a Deliverer.

She lures young men and delivers them to be sold. She delivers the strikes that enforce their obedience. She delivers the sexual training that determines their purchase price.

As long as she delivers, the arrangement that protects her family will hold.

Delivering is all she knows.

The one thing she can’t deliver is a captive from slavery.

Until him.

And her stubborn slave thinks he can deliver her…from herself.

Romantic Thriller
Stand Alone (no cliff-hanger). The sequel is coming Summer 2014.
Content warning: Graphic sex, violence, and psychological abuse. Age 18+ only.

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Reviewed by Jenny & Gitte

J&G: 4 Stars

Gitte:  I have to start off with saying how much I bloody love Pam Godwin’s writing style, it comes across effortless and through its beauty it evokes intense emotions and images of the scenes so vividly that it’s as if I’m watching them play out, with my heart in my throat. I loved this unique story of Liv & Josh, I felt as if I’d been through a gruelling experience of abuse, violence and darkness with a heart breaking romance amongst it all. It was absolutely mind blowing at times. However, I would have loved some of the loose ends tied up or at least explained as well as more ‘afters’ which I think the characters and I deserved after such a harrowing journey. But that’s just me. I just needed more from this standalone I guess as I felt the end came across a tad rushed leaving me with more questions than answers.

So Jenny, this was different wasn’t it?! I’m not sure why, but my emotions were all over the place in the beginning of Deliver, more so than usual for this type of story. I wonder whether this is because the victim was a man and the captor was a woman?

“I am deliverer. I deliver the strikes that enforce your obedience…”

A gentle gorgeous giant on a path in life so starkly different to that of his captor. Did you feel the same?

Jenny: Totally agree G. Pam’s writing is truly beautiful to read and the flow of her writing is a dream. I really did enjoy Deliver and I have to say that it played out quite differently to how I expected it would.

This story did feel quite different, unique in some ways,  because of the role reversal to what we generally read in this genre. This story did seem particularly gut wrenching for me because the captive was a beautiful, pure, loyal, wise beyond his years, stoic young man.

“We may not be trapped for the same reason, but we’re looking in the same direction, reaching beyond these walls.”

My heart lurched as Josh’s  innocent life became the stuff of nightmares, and I don’t know if it’s because I have a son, but I found this story, especially the beginning of Josh’s torment particularly harrowing and dreaded what was to become of Josh. My gut twisted and it was with a sense of foreboding that I proceeded with this story as Josh became ensnared in a sex slave trafficking nightmare at hands of some abhorrent and despicable human beings.

Liv and Josh’s story, and it really is both their story to tell, was one of enlightenment and hope borne played out in the most gruesome, sickening and despicable of situations.

“Mistress, I love our smile. If I could free it once a day, it might make the next ten weeks bearable. Would smiling cause conflict in your job?” – Josh

Both characters were pawns in a deadly and cruel game, where money is king and where lives are bought and sold without a second glance or a thought for the devastation left in its wake. Deliver delivered the majority of the time for me and my only gripe as such was the same as you Gitte. I felt the end was rushed and we were left with many questions at the end. I was a bit confused with the way the story ended as like you Gitte, I believed this book to be a standalone and as such, I would have expected a full conclusion.

Gitte:  Josh was an amazing male character and I immediately fell in love with his persona, his immense strength, his protective instinct and of course his naughty side. He’s taken from a life of religion; a football hero, a virgin with a firm set of morals and principles. His innocence is disarming; his lushness addictive. The fact that he’s a virgin is to his detriment as the deliverer; Liv is coming for him. The twists and turns in this story left me gobsmacked and the ‘why Josh?’ became so much more than just that as we learn about Liv.

“What defines us is not how we fall but how we land.”

Josh amazed me throughout this story, he was a strong beautifully written character. To go through what he did and come out on the other side with such a clear head and such amazing strength under duress was really quite something.

‘Hatred, his new friend, swept through his veins, promising delicious acts of retaliation against every foul fibre in that woman’s body.’

My heart beat frantically for him but I was in complete awe of his will power, his ability to see beyond what was in front of him, his compassion, his beauty and his passion. He really is one of my favourite male characters and I applaud Pam Godwin, because not only was Josh gorgeous and strong; he was so unique and had such depth that he dominated and drove this story completely in my opinion. In amongst my issues he is what made this story for me.

‘He represented purity, beauty, family, all of the things that had been taken from her. He was a glimmer of goodness in her dark fucking world, a warm spark she could hold, if only for a fleeting span of time.’

Josh is a saviour in his own right and through his capture by the tragic Liv he shines like a beacon. He ultimately saved the damaged Liv didn’t he Jenny?

“The devil with the voice and heart of an angel.”

Jenny: Josh really was an outstanding character Gitte, and Liv’s motives and cruelty towards him really did have us guessing at the start of the book. I was prepared in the beginning to detest this woman, I expected to despise her for the part she played as deliverer and ‘trainer’ of innocent people in an evil, degrading and sickening sex slave trafficking ring.

“What’s your name.? ”
“L-I-V?” — “L-I-V,” ‘Place it between DE and ERER and there was her job title.’

However, as the story progressed, Liv became so much more. I love it when a book has me questioning my own morality. When I am forced to ask myself  “what would I do in in this person’s shoes?” and Pam Godwin made me do just that. Oh from the comfort of my own lounge room the answer was simple, I couldn’t imagine myself causing such pain and degradation to others. But what if it wasn’t just my own self-preservation that was at stake.What then? Well, then the situation becomes something entirely different.

“Better to be enchained with someone on your side than to be alone with a false sense of freedom.”

Liv’s young life and her innocence were taken from her at a young age and her story was so tragic in its telling. Her life was helpless and hopeless yet this brave young woman, herself a victim, a pawn in a game, was to turn the anger I felt towards her into awe. These two people, both so different, yet both damaged, would find a thread that would pull them together. Together they found a resilience, a strength, a passion and a love that was worth fighting for.

‘He was born with choices and would die by decisions.’

I’ll admit there were a couple of times I questioned  some scenarios and outcomes, and as I said previously, the end did feel somewhat rushed. Overall this story had me gripped in its clutches from start to finish.

“It’s ugly in there, decayed by lies and shame, endlessly bleeding for all the lives I’ve ruined.” – Liv

Pam Godwin managed to crush my heart and break it as Liv’s story unfolded. I was on the edge of my seat with nervous anticipation most of the way through and my heart felt love for two people who, in each other, found a reason to hope and I cheered them both every step of the way. This story became so much more as we delved into the characters of Josh and Liv. Deliver is a thrilling and suspenseful romance and a definite must read!

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BENEATH THE BURN by PAM GODWIN

SYNOPSIS

They meet by chance. The timing is wrong.
Three years later, she finds him again, but their separation was poisoned with narcotics and bloodied by enslavement.
Her freedom gambled away, Charlee Grosky escapes the international businessman who held her captive. But his power reaches beyond her protective barriers and threatens everyone she has come to love.
Jay Mayard wears his tortured secrets under his rock god facade. Drugs are his release, even as he seeks to be the man forged of the steel only she can see.
In a celebrity world filled with paparazzi, groupies, and drugs, Jay and Charlee must face their worst fears. When the battle is over, what will be left…Beneath The Burn.
Genre: Romantic/Erotic Thriller
Content warning: Includes graphic rape, sex, anal, bondage, and violence. Age 18+ only.

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Reviewed by Jenny & Gitte

Gitte:   So wow Jenny, I did not expect anything remotely close to what this story turned out to be did you?  I mean it was downright horrific, gritty and raw, emotional and gut wrenching whilst full of hope, human perseverance, strength and above all the love of the soul mate variety!

Jenny: You’re so right G. The story that developed was unlike anything I expected. This book literally drew me in from the first sentence! Talk about gritty! I was entrenched in this story from the first page. Yes, it was extremely uncomfortable, and I do mean uncomfortable, reading at times and it certainly had my heart racing, melting and twisting all at the same time. It had all the elements we love in a story, and all delivered in such a unique way.

Gitte: We meet Jay first who is the lead singer of The Burn. My heart bled for this guy. Jay is so tormented by his past it rules his actions in the present. This gorgeous haunted man is separated from enjoying what life can offer him. Instead he lives in his music, singing in the shadows repulsed by touch and attention; seeking release and relief from his demons. Seeking love and affection.

“Sometimes, he would imagine what being loved felt like….Was it warm and soothing? Powerful and protective? In his twenty-four years, he had never experienced closeness with another.”

He meets Charlee after making a snap decision and their journey begins as the reader gets carried away on one hell of an emotional roller coaster ride.

“Fuck him but he’d found a beacon of salvation in this gorgeous girl. And lost his goddamned mind.”

“Perhaps she was the missing element of his soul?”

I seriously fell in love with Jay as this story unfolded. He’s being eaten from the inside out by the demon from his past. His voice lyrically burrowed into my heart where it’ll stay, no question. His love and persistence to be with and understand Charlee, even his efforts to give his soul mate everything she craved. Well it was beautiful and emotional.  You loved him too didn’t you Jenny?!

Jenny:  Sure did G. I fell completely for this enigmatic tortured soul who finds solace in drugs to numb his pain. What a wonderfully poetic and fascinating character he was. Jay, with all his demons, who, tragically, possessed so much self loathing, yet such beauty, completely stole my heart.

She wanted to learn more about him, wanted to nestle deep inside and unearth the man who seemed all too familiar with pain. Real pain.”

As his past was revealed and his horrors exposed, I ached for this man who, as you say, lived in the shadows, frightened and revolted by a mere touch. Jay truly was a remarkably written character.

“You build me up and turn me inside out. I’ve never felt so defenceless and yet….so daring at the same time”

There was so much depth to this man and in Charlee he found a piece of his soul. This woman was his light, his muse, his everything and their journey was one that had me completely captivated, addicted and horrified in equal measures.

“I don’t just want to be where you need me.” His tone was deep, sharp. “I want to be what you need.”

Gitte:  Now, Charlee’s a mystery, she instantly comes across as very self-assured which is a-bloody-stounding all things considered. It’s not long though before we learn the true horror of who Charlee really is and the horror of abuse she has lived for years.

“She narrowed all thoughts on building her armor. She’d created the mental barrier at sixteen, and over the two years that followed she thickened her skin with it, layer after layer, training her subconscious to unleash it.”

This girl’s story broke my heart into small pieces. The horror of it, wow, yet she displayed such amazing strength and had such courage in her convictions.

As soon as we met Charlee I knew that this girl was something else, her story was sickening and soul destroying yet she fought with every bit of strength her captor was unable to beat and force out of her.  Without doubt she’s one of my favourite heroines in a long time. Do you feel the same Jenny?

Jenny:  Gitte, after spending time with Charlee, I seriously want kiss this author for giving us one of the most impressive and inspiring heroines I’ve met in quite a while.

“Even face down, Charlee made a picture that inspired men to fight, live, and write music”

After quite a few DNF’s due to annoying or unrelatable heroines, I have to say that not only was Charlee Jay’s saviour, she was also mine.  To witness, experience and feel Charlee’s shocking journey and live through her unbearable treatment and humiliation nearly broke me, but Charlee would not allow it to break or define her. This tenacious, beautiful woman showed so much strength, so much determination and a bloody lot of heart.  How she communicated with Jay, how she sought to heal him and how she was so resilient and open to him and his issues was remarkable. I admired this woman unquestionably.

“Yes! – she told herself that he was every bit as fucked up as she was.

Gitte: In some respects I think this story was mostly Charlee’s journey. The abuse, the hurt and pain and the continuous quest for her freedom and finding her soul mate, a memory of a one night encounter keeping her sane through her depths of despair. The way she ‘handles’ Jay, I’d almost go as far as to say Charlee is Jay’s saviour as he is hers.

“One of these day’s Jay Mayard, you will wear those scars with pride.” – Charlee

“If you stay close to me Charlee, my faith will stay close, too.” – Jay

This story is very hard to read at times, it’s ugly and the baddie, well Roy is right there at the top of book villains! One word comes to mind, obsession, at all costs, be it with cruelty and force. You’ll want to make a pin cushion out of him.

“Happiness is fleeting. An unquantifiable nonentity. Her real needs were met by my hand. She simply couldn’t live without me.”Roy

However, beauty can come out of pain and Jay and Charlee’s story certainly is a fitting example of this. These two were meant for each other, their souls recognised the other. Survivors of abuse, with the scars to prove it.

“I love your scars. They inspire me. I’ve never met another person who has experienced pain like–“

“She’d created the epitome of beauty and strength in pain. And yes, it fucking celebrated the freedom in survival.”

There wasn’t a single character in this story that didn’t play an important part, I loved them all, well except Roy and his Craig’s!! Everyone else brought humour, suspense and intrigue.

One of my favourite scenes in this story was strangely enough the emotion that bled off the pages involving Charlee, Jay and his band mates when they make a shocking discovery of the sheer magnitude of the effect Charlee has on Jay. What she has enabled him to do…to feel. I read this scene through tears!

Now, so why not a five star? Well, I had one issue with this story and that was the length. I felt there was a lot of repetition and parts were unnecessarily over written. I had to catch myself from skimming, which in the case of this emotionally and beautifully written story would be devastatingly unjust. Despite this though I kind of want to give this Author a standing ovation for writing one of the most unique and refreshing stories I have read so far this year! Be prepared for one hell of a scary, horrible, nerve-wracking yet intensely beautiful ride!

“She was his greatest possibility. His reason. His why. He would give whatever she needed to be whole and happy, because loving her was as essential as drawing air.” – Jay

How did you feel about their journey and not forgetting Roy (grrrrrr….) Jenny?

Jenny:  My feelings were all over the place in Beneath The Burn. It was an intense, suspenseful, gritty, powerful, emotional, erotic and evocative read.  This story, about two unlikely saviours bringing salvation to one another was an addictive, heart pounding read.

“Love is like a series of improbable, lonely notes landing together in meaning chaos.”

Charlee’s story especially brought me to my knees. I loved her, I felt her and I suffered with her because this author wrote a character that was so warm and relatable.  We get to experience Charlee’s suffering first hand, and as a result we are taken through the intensity of her feelings as she faced unimaginable horrors and it was testament to her character that she survived at all.

“It was funny how a passing of time could rip you apart, and all it took was one freeing moment to solder the pieces back together.”

As for Roy!! Don’t get me started. He was one of the most disgustingly evil villains I have met. Pin cushion? I wanted to rip off his testicles and shove them down his throat. I despised the man and I was sickened by his cruelty and the power he wielded.

My reasons are the same as yours Gitte in respect of my rating for Beneath The Burn, and I also have to add that there were some minor inconsistencies in the story, but they these were minor and did not impact on my overall feelings for this story. 

Beneath The Burn tore me apart and moved me implicitly, it lifted me to dizzying heights and plummeted me to the pits of despair and all from the very first page and with my heart in my mouth. Jay and Charlee will forever have a place in my heart. These two extremely flawed characters who showed bravery beyond anything even they themselves thought they were capable of, left me breathless. 

 “I don’t know what you’re doing to me, Charlee, but whatever it is melts everything else away.”

 Gitte: 4.5 Stars
Jenny: 4.5 Stars

ARC provided by author in exchange for an honest review. 

BENEATH THE BURN by PAM GODWIN
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