beautiful losersSYNOPSIS

‘Would you like to watch us?’

Shira is deeply, achingly in love with her best friend, Jean. This is unfortunate, because he’s gay. But with one flippant invitation, Shira, Jean, and his boyfriend, Sebastian, begin their obsessive journey into the dark heart of sexual excess. When even their own edgy subculture refuses to accept them, Sebastian builds a new world with new rules to shelter the threesome. But the baggage they’ve brought with them can’t simply be left at the door and, when the real world breaches the carefully constructed walls, it does so with tragic consequences.

Beautiful Losers is the first novel-length work by erotic fiction writer Remittance Girl.

(This is not a romance. I NEVER write romances. If you’re after one, please don’t read this.)


Gitte:  4.5 stars

So I had no idea what to expect from this book. I hadn’t read any reviews and didn’t really know anything about it. Perhaps this is why I enjoyed it as much as I did as it completely took me by surprise.

To begin with, I wasn’t at all sure I was going to like it; I’ll be honest and admit I thought it was all about the sex scenes at first. However, this story turned out to be about so much more and the emotions it pulled out of me were incredibly intense at times.  I also found it to have a really strong message, especially at the end.

Yes it was hot, sure, but it was also extremely passionate, emotional and it literally came alive in my hands. The writing is pretty amazing, the way in which this Author wrote such distinctive characters, with such depth and intrigue had me reading this in one sitting.

This story is daring and brave as it questions and examines gender and sexuality with such expressive and passionate writing that makes you feel as if you have gone on an exhaustive journey. It will confirm or deny what you perceive and it makes you take stock. The expressive characters taking you on a journey that could be set anywhere as it’s unique to our characters and their struggles, social “identities” and pegged sexual orientation due to social stereotyping.

Beautiful Losers is an M/M/F story about Jean (m) and Sebastian (m) who are very much in love. They ask Shira (F) Jean’s best friend to join them.  The reasons for which are plenty yet not obvious. Their journey is dark, at times uncomfortable yet I couldn’t leave it.

The, for want of a better word, gothic setting accompanied by drugs, alcohol and music with an abundance of black eyeliner and lipstick was very dramatic and raw!

The characters are all damaged or broken in their own way with extreme insecurities hidden behind their own individual masks. The romance in this story is like looking for a needle in a haystack but when given snippets of it in its disguised guises and actions, it hit me real hard as it was so rarely there. Rather, love is almost a forbidden word.

Reading this book I had no idea where it was going but I had a feeling it couldn’t be good and I was on tenterhooks all the way through just waiting for something awful to happen. I don’t do spoilers so all I will say is that the ending is real abrupt and whether it has a HEA is debatable and depends on how you view things. Personally, I would have liked more, I needed more. The way in which I was forced to leave these characters felt unfinished…the Author was done…I wasn’t!!!

“We are human. Absolutely everything else is negotiable.”

For consistency of reviewing, I have to mention that there were some editing issues in this book.

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  1. remittance girl said:

    Hello and thank you for the lovely review. I do apologize for the editing issues. It’s a little disconcerting when one publishes through a reputable publisher, the book goes through a line edit and still has issues. Frankly, for me, it begs the question why bother going through a publisher at all. I’m so glad you enjoyed the book.


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