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This is book 2 in the Heart of Darkness Duology and is recommended the reader begin with book 1, The Moon Shines Red, currently on sale for only 99c/99p! 

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**Spoiler-Free Review**

“A monster like me deserves no mercy.”
‘He had only ever brought pain to those he cared about. He didn’t deserve to be here. He would end this now.’
“I am nowhere…I exist. But I do not live. I am nowhere.”

A Monster Like Me by Pamela Sparkman is a book we’ve been waiting a long time for and it was beyond worth the wait. This second book in her paranormal ‘Heart of Darkness’ duet was everything and more than we could have wished for it to be. This is one of those times where you could feel every bit of the blood, sweat and tears the Author went through when putting her words to paper. As far as we’re concerned this is what books should have – the beating pulse of its creator.

“I am darkness. You are light. That’s what we are. Night and day. You are everything good. And I am everything children are afraid of…I believe that makes us enemies.”

As paranormal book lovers this duet is what it’s all about; the world creation, the folklore, the mystery and intrigue and an abundance of characters that each have their otherworldly cross to bear. Characters have stayed true to themselves and how refreshing for it to be all about the story and the characters. Pamela Sparkman is a brilliant writer with a flawless and compelling flair for fantasy combined with a vivid imaginative prose. We highly recommend reading this in order as the backstory is -in our opinion- an important piece of the full picture. It’ll make you smile, swoon, cry and fall in love with Pamela Sparkman’s words.

“It’s only at night that we can see the stars, Zeph. Darkness doesn’t have to be scary. It can be beautiful. You have just forgotten.”

The Moon Shines Red is the first book -which we loved- and it’s where we first met the ‘evil monstrous’ Zeph who believes himself to be evil incarnate after discovering that his life has been mostly consequence of lies. He’s a truly hated character and what wondrous writing ability to turn a figure of hate into a figure which demands compassion and love which is just what Pamela Sparkman did and achieved. Our hearts broke, bled and cried for him as he fights his internal war whilst trying to convince himself he’s not worthy of the love he receives from the beautiful and compassionate, Arwyn. Whilst theirs is a story of love it’s also a story of battle.

‘Do not fear your darkness, Zeph. You are the space between the stars, the weight under the sun, the canvas of the moon’s glow, stitching the fabric of the sky in place. You are neither man, nor monster, my friend. You are the magic that makes everything else shine.’

We loved being back with the characters we fell in love with from The Moon Shines Red and we were captivated with the continuing character development as well as the fighting for the cause of the realm as well as true happiness and love. But also pain…so much pain, so much emotional tragedy and a tortured soul.

‘Guilt was a monster of its own. It was a wall that trapped him, held him prisoner, too big to go around, too mountainous to climb over. It pressed upon him until he was crushed underneath the weight of it, stealing his air and taking his hope.’

A Monster Like Me is a story of external as well as internal battles. A story of righting wrongs, family loyalties and friendships. It’s a story of love and sacrifice, war and peace. It’s a story of selflessness, choices and redemption. Above all, it’s an addictive, beautiful and exhilarating tale for readers of paranormal romance with the emphasis on the paranormal, the magical and the mystical. What a powerful and almost poetic voice this Author has in the world of Fae.

“If I thought I could run from you, I quickly discovered I was a fool for trying. You’re in my veins, Arwyn. You’re in my thoughts.”


“I love the peculiar silence of shadows. They exist, but leave no mark.”

Zeph had been a child, thrust into a war that wasn’t his. When he was older, he discovered he had landed on the wrong side of everything.

He’d been fighting for sweet revenge, because of lies he’d believed—and those lies proved to be his ruin. Falling into despair, Zeph decides living is too painful. So, he writes his final act with poison and chooses to end his story.

But Fate has other plans for Zeph and when he finds himself in the hands of his enemies, he has to decide: Does he want to live? Or does he want to die?

Or maybe that choice is no longer his to make.

Ruled by shadows and armed with secrets he never intended to share, Zeph will be put through his toughest battle yet: the war within himself.

“He isn’t a lost cause. He’s just—lost.”

That’s what Arwyn believes. She sees the monster he has become, but what she also sees is someone worth fighting for. Armed with secrets of her own, she’s determined to help Zeph fight his demons, because there was more on the line than Zeph’s soul. So much more.

Revenge may be sweet. But redemption is sweeter. The question is, can Zeph find the boy he used to be, or will he always believe that no one could ever love—a monster like him.

“You are everything good. And I am everything children are afraid of.”

**CAUTION**Contains a brief descriptive scene of childhood rape.

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  1. ShannonVM said:

    I adored this duet!


    1. TotallyBookedBlog Post author said:

      Wasn’t it AMAZING! One of our faves too xo


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