SOMEDAY, SOMEDAY by EMMA SCOTT

“You get one of those unwanted, unnatural desires, you just lock it up in the vault. Pay it no mind. You do that long enough, and one day you don’t feel anything. And feeling nothing is better than feeling the things you shouldn’t.”

“I’m so tired, but this…You. It was beaten into me. Frozen into my bones, how wrong I was. How I shouldn’t be…this.”

Someday, Someday by Emma Scott was so much more than what we expected. We read a lot of mm romance and have to admit that when an mf Author decides to write an mm romance we immediately become apprehensive as it doesn’t always work for us, no matter how much we love the Author. See, we place such importance on the intense emotional aspect that walks hand in hand with the struggle of equality and acceptance, getting the balance right between romance, heat and the important realism of struggles between families and society.

“A child should not have to beg for a parent’s love.”
‘He can’t love me. I can’t love him. Not like this. Because this poison…this icy poison is going to follow me forever.’

Ultimately a love story is a love story, but it has to have the realistic crucial emotions, realism and above all, character respect. In our humble opinion, Emma Scott nailed it. This story had our hearts on tenterhooks throughout the entire story. We already knew that Emma Scott is a quality writer, we’ve loved every book she’s written as she never fails to draw every single emotion from us, both with her words and the depth of her characters. Our apprehension was completely unfounded. What a wonderfully heart-breaking yet inspirational story of love, family, friendship, loyalty and ultimately, life. A gut-wrenching story of addiction, hatred and personal survival. Emma Scott shines the spotlight on what is still so heartbreakingly wrong in today’s society, which is the devastatingly sad truth that who you love can come with such horrific consequences.

‘Silas Marsh walked straight into that room like the answer to a question I hadn’t known I’d been asking. A strange thought had battered itself around my heart: There he is.’
‘Damn, I was tired. So tired of being this…creature. Not a real man. Not anything.’

There were so many outstanding moments in Someday, Someday, we highlighted quote after quote, all setting our reading souls on fire, whilst tears ran down our faces. But there were smiles too, so many smiles. So much love, so much hope. The strongest people are those who cannot fall further in life, yet rise like a phoenix out of the fire from pure will and love. Those are the ones who demand our respect, love and compassion.

‘Max wasn’t hard like me. He wasn’t made of ice and stone. He was mutable. Flame and water. His pain wasn’t crushing the life out of him but fueling him. Making him better. Stronger. And he didn’t tolerate anyone –me- taking it lightly.’

Max and Silas have both been through the most indescribable mental and physical hardship simply because of who they are and who they love. Think about it; they are punished because they love. That’s all; they love, they do not hate. Imagine being tortured mentally and physically just because you love, which in essence is the crux of it. It’s inconceivable that this is still a suffering so many people face in our society today; not being accepted for love.

“Why does my damn heart have to feel so full…It’s so goddamn full of you, I’m petrified it’s going to spill over or shatter into a million different pieces.”

“Hey. Look at me. It won’t. Because the last thing in this world I want to do is break your heart. You’re safe with me, Silas. I’ve told you that and I mean it. Don’t let them take what we have…”

We fell in love with both Max and Silas; two wonderful men. Their story was compelling, it broke our hearts and we cried for them both and what they went through. Yet their story lifted our hearts too. Two broken and somewhat lost souls finding love and peace in each other. It was quite the emotionally arduous journey, but when you find that one person who quietens the raging pain inside and at the same time shows you a path of love you never thought possible, well the leap of faith through the storm makes it all worth it in the end. When you find your person hang on tight, because love is love!

“Choose me, Silas. I’ll love you for who you are, and we’ll have a shot at happy.”
‘I gripped him hard. Max. My goddamn anchor, while the storm that had been raging somewhere in me for years finally broke.’